Muthoni the Drummer Queen has expressed how much Nairobi Half Life movie has affected her life.
The crime thriller shot in Nairobi highlights the life of a naïve village boy with dreams to be an actor but ends up living a double life in the city. A thug by night and an actor by day.
The theme resonated with Muthoni who wrote on her blog. She penned a long post with the title 'Ways in Which Nairobi Half Life moved me. An Open Letter'.
She wrote, "I became Mwas. Even now I taste the bitter sweet headiness of chasing a dream. Mwas made me remember how many times I am so naïve, so clueless, so fearless. Mwas made me think of those decisions and actions I refuse and fear to fully own because of the mess I made, and yet I cannot take back because of the mess I made.
"Often, musicians at all stages of their career ask me to let them play at Blankets and Wine. Some are good- they get in. Some are bad. Some just need more time. Some I can't see how to schedule alongside what currently exists. Then comes the dread! I cannot bear to say these things to them. After all, who the hell I'm I to say these things?"
The movie also reminded her of her late father who died by the bullet of a carjacker.
"Then there was Oti and his whole crew. YOLO. Living la vida loca. Going down a road whose end is guaranteed. Thug life. And there I was. One with them. I have never robbed anyone let alone killed anything bigger than a cockroach. But my father was murdered at our gate while driving in from friday evening mass, minding his own business. So Oti takes me there. I see Oti being so reckless with his life, high on the power trip of a gun. Of course, there was no other way it could end right? You live by the gun- you die by it. So why do I flinch when he is killed? I flinch. I did not want him to die like that."
She added, "How funny that even as I remain connected to my dad in death, I would - just for a moment thanks to Oti - be connected to my dads killer too. And what poetic justice that I would think these thoughts and feel these things on my fathers ten year memorial."